Currently, I commute an hour and a half each way to work. This morning, after feeling so clumsy and exhausted last night, I decided to slow down and be really mindful yesterday. I drove in the pitch black at 6:30 am along 1-70 passing cow pastures and farm land. Listening to a podcast about letting go of perfectionism through vulnerability, I noticed the sky, the green signs, the flickering headlights of oncoming cars. I noticed how this made me softer.
Things that normally trigger me I was able to observe and breath through, stay calm, stiller.
Once at work, I noticed how I often start to do one thing, then stop in the middle to start something else and I wind up doing three things at once. While I still ate my lunch at my desk, I was more observant about slowing down, crossing one thing off the list at a time and giving myself breaks between tasks. Towards the end of my day, I did scurry around to try and get out of there. But at least I noticed it. Baby steps. Progress not perfection.
I noticed my anxiety was non-existent because anxiety is about the future and mindfulness is about the present. While I’m not the first person to notice this, it’s motivation to keep at it. Keep mindful.
Today, I am off work but I packed a busy day for myself. I still got up before my family and sat in meditation. I realize I still need to be mindful, maybe even more so on my “days off” because I try to pack in one zillion things I don’t get to do during the week- workout, clean the car, grocery store. But I can slow down and tackle one task at a time, feeling gratitude I have this time “off”.
Onward Wellness Warriors!
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