My arena

I’ve been listening to Rising Strong by Brene Brown in between true crime podcasts- (balance amiright?) and I could feel myself armoring up before a meeting with some decidedly unsupportive colleagues (maybe they are accountability partners but it feels more like they are waiting to pounce at my slightest slip up, criticizing my every move and not giving me the grace I’ve given them). Some of these group members are amazing, I might add. I was prepared to be present with an open heart, not make assumptions or be defensive as I’ve been on previous occasions. I spoke my truth and I got challenged in subtle, rather passive-aggressive ways. The stories I wrestled with myself were familiar- What do they know that I don’t?, That I am not enough. I challenged these stories (“maybe they don’t have good social skills”) and reminded myself if’s ok if I’m not everybody’s cup of tea. Some good self care in the form of humor, time with my favorite people and a good night’s rest. Right before bed I read this passage from Comfortable with Uncertainty by Pema Chodron- that in order to become awakened I must take off that armor. “No one can tell you how to do it because you’re the only one who knows how you locked yourself in there to start.” I accepted these lessons with these people as I move forward in my journey, the lessons only part of my story. The story I get to finish. Speak your truth Wellness Warriors XX