It’s amazing how quickly we humans adapt, isn’t it? Day by day, new information and restrictions come at us. From leadership that ranges from questionable to incompetent. And nothing like this has happened in my lifetime. Not exactly. Fear over the unknown -absolutely. Y2K, haha. What a joke. 911 is the most recent memory that lead to exponential cultural shapings. But not this- global health pandemic.
So- I’ll be honest. I just started quaratine mode yesterday. I taught yoga and saw clients that met social distancing restriction standards to the best of my knowledge. And slowly, those roles have been stripped from me one by one.
I have chosen to work in several roles, all of which I love dearly. I get to hold space for others as a therapist, a mental health consultant and teach yoga. I dreamed of carving out these very personal and sacred roles and I did it! And then- things changed. One by one my roles were taken away. I know I’m very fortunate and not the only one dealing with change. But if I don’t work, I don’t get paid, like many others in my field and other industries such as service/retail/hospitality. I count my blessings that I have a supportive husband and resources.
On a personal level, I recognize, reluctantly at times, that this is an opportunity to surrender. I’ve never NOT had a job. I’m a worker bee, a helper. When my friends were sunning themselves at the pool in high school, I worked. I’m a Capricorn, an achiever. I currently hold 20 letters after my name. I’ve never been fired from a job in my life. I don’t make a lot of money but a lot of my identify comes from my work.
So, this is my test. My lesson. To embrace the tears of uncertainty. To embrace my role as a mom, which if I’m being honest I’d been neglecting until very recently. Gratitude is a frequent friend as I get to remind myself how fortunate I am- for my health, for my family, my community, my work. I got to snuggle my girl this rainy morning and swing and play in the park on this beautiful sunny day. Yoga is teaching me to let go of what the ego wants and embrace my own true nature. So I’m gonna ride on faith for a minute. I’ll holler back on how all that goes.
Fortunately, we’re all coming to terms with some of the benefits of the world changes. Pollution decreasing, the earth is responding rapidly to our lifestyle changes. I’m embracing time to be present with myself and my loved ones. My thoughts go to the healthcare workers and of course the sick, the ones I want to help serve as they’re on the front lines of this crazy health crisis. And I’ll find a way back to normalcy. We all will. To our new normal.
Stay healthy and safe. Namaste. Love you.
Jami's Journal 